Well, after getting some rest last night, getting up this morning and re-reading last nights post about the ’shallow-ness’ of people only noticing me now after losing weight…I think I was dumb to write that…LOL…Seriously though…I wasn’t happy with ME 50 lbs. ago, so why should I think anyone else would have been happy with me then? I mean, I’m happily married, and all that really matters is that Clint loves me, always has and always will, no matter my size or otherwise. He’s been so full of compliments lately, I just love it…makes me feel even better about what I have accomplished so far…and it’s definitely flattering to have other men give me smiles here and there, but what Clint thinks is the main thing

I think the problem I was having last night, is, I still don’t take compliments too well…I had so much self-doubt when I was at my heaviest, that it’s hard to get rid of it, and actually accept that someone thinks I look nice…I need to learn to take compliments better…and it’s not an easy thing to do. When I would get them before, I always thought they were ‘pitty’ compliments, not sincere ones. So I sabotaged myself into thinking that way, and got myself to NOT accept them as sincere compliments…I guess my thinking was, ‘I look SO disgusting!! How on EARTH can they be being nice???’…Even with Clint…he would compliment me, and I would want to cry instead of saying ‘Thank You’ and accepting what he said as something he truly meant. So, now that I’m feeling better about *me* it’s getting easier to graciously accept a compliment Kinda fun actually

hahahaha…So, just blow off yesterdays post…I hope all this came out the way it was meant to…I feel like I’m babbling and rambling, and not getting my point across…LOL…oh well, guess that’s me hahahahah…

Here’s today’s Friday Five (Link to it is under my ‘participation’ link, below)

1. What was the last song you heard? Traveling Soldier by Dixie Chicks
2. What were the last two movies you saw? I watched Bio Dome and America’s Sweethearts yesterday
3. What were the last three things you purchased? Well, there were more than 3…I did grocery shopping last night, Wal-mart the night before
4. What four things do you need to do this weekend? Take Abbie to her first Horse-Riding lesson Laundry, Vacuum, pick up Clint’s frame to the car he’s restoring, and last but not least…RELAX
5. Who are the last five people you talked to? Megan, Abbie, my mom, Clint, and Penny (she’s at work here with me)…

Alrighty then…I’m off…back to work Have a WONDERFUL day!!!!!!!!!