Yesterday I mentioned how he and I both felt so ‘calm’ on Tuesday. Yesterday, early on, pretty much the same. There were a bit of nerves but more just anxious to get him to the Dr. and see what he had to say. Here’s the deal (so far)…
Seems in his ER report of the CT scan results, they listed ‘Cancer’ pretty clearly. Thing is, things just don’t add up. First, he DOES have a ‘little’ diverticulitis on his left side, but not enough to concern us or to have symptoms like he does. Second, the right side where all of his pain is, is definitely NOT diverticulitis. The Dr. said that most of the upper colon is inflamed and he’s very unsure of what would be causing this.
What I didn’t want to mention early on, was the mention to us of Cancer. The ER dr. told us that is what they are fearing at this point. Clint’s Dr. last night said, and I quote ‘Something doesn’t smell right’…yes, Clint showered before he went in. What he meant was, Clint is only 32 years old. He’s a VERY healthy man. He doesn’t smoke, only drinks socially (we’re talking less than once a month) he’s not overweight, he’s not sedentary in any sense of the word…it just doesn’t add up. I realize that doesn’t mean it’s impossible for there to be cancer in such a young healthy man, but at this point, his Dr. doesn’t want to buy that diagnosis. Our next step right now is the colonoscopy and we have to wait to hear from the Dr. that will perform that to find out when it’s scheduled for.
One other thing that the Dr. mentioned last night was Clint’s liver. When we were at the ER they told us there were ’spots’ on his colon that showed on the CT scan. Now his Dr. yesterday told us there were spots on his liver. ER never ONCE mentioned Clint’s liver. So there’s another thing we’re unsure of.
I didn’t go with Clint to the Dr. yesterday, and I feel like the ‘mom’ in me is taking over and I want to call his Dr. office and make sure they put an ‘URGENT’ on his colonoscopy (or ‘Ass-camera’ as my brother lovingly refers to it…HA). But that just makes Clint nervous and the last thing he needs is a nagging wife making us look crazy to the Dr. office…oh well. So for now, I’m trying to be rational, and patient.
In between bouts of sobbing, I am trying to remain calm and strong, and keep all of this from the girls until we know for sure. Abbie knows what cancer is and what it can do. Not something I even want to burden her mind with until we know for sure what’s going on. I just keep reminding her and Megan everyday to keep daddy in their prayers for him to get healthy and strong again.
I’m sorry these past few entries are not the norm, but like I said before, there’s nothing right now that we can do except pray, and what better way to get more and more prayers for my special man, than to put it out here…Thank you all for that.