Jeans!

By Lisa on 05.05.2008

So just a quick update here as there really hasn’t been much activity on the weight loss end lately. Until today that is. This morning I pulled an old pair of jeans out of my closet for something different to wear. I don’t wear jeans very often. I grabbed the jeans, said my prayers, and without even having to lay on the bed and suck it all in, they zipped right up! I wore them to work today!

We’ve been so busy lately with getting ready for me to be done work, and Clint is restoring my dad’s ‘56 Chevy for him and we’ll be taking that to Good Guys this July, so we’re really focusing on getting the car finished which is taking up every spare moment we have so that it’s ready for the trip. So don’t give up on me or think I’ve given up. There’s just a crazy amount of schtuff going on!

More of me…

By Lisa on 04.24.2008

Since we have some great changes that will be happening for our family soon, I have started a new journal that will be more about family, saving money, cleaning, organizing…instead of posting about all of those sorts of topics here.

If you’re brave enough to see a bit more of my life and all that consists of, come and see me there, too! How Much Smoke Can One Stove Make?

How do I know?

By Lisa on 04.23.2008

I am having a hard time with something lately. I’m working on retraining my brain, but it’s really hard to distinguish the problem right now.

I don’t know if I’m hungry or not.

Seriously. I think I’m so used to munching possibly out of habit, that I’m sitting here right now, my stomach feels a little weird, so I automatically assume it must be hungry. Thing is, I’m sick right now. So I know my stomach is all yucky because of that, but the first thing I think of is, I need bread. For some reason when my stomach feels bad, if I eat bread, it seems like it’s something ’solid’ and usually helps. I don’t want to use food to fix it unless it’s actual hunger.

My stomach isn’t growling at all. I am feeling very thirsty though from being sick, and I’m downing tons of water, but that just gives my stomach the water-logged feeling, making it feel worse.

I guess the whole point here was just to post and avoid eating. I know I’m not hungry but my head immediately makes me think I need something to eat.

HEAD, STOP IT.

So foreign to me…

By Lisa on 04.18.2008

Today is a bitter-sweet day in the online weight loss world. Today was (hopefully not, but she says so) the last post for KatieO at Sister Skinny. She’s been such an inspiration to me, and today she’s posted a new video in her goal size jeans. A size 6.

What’s foreign to me about this, is until I read her post today, I don’t think I ever realized that there really and truly can be an end. I’ve been fighting for 10+ years with my weight. In my journey, I never thought that an end was a possiblity. There is always going to have to be the awareness and conciousness with eating and exercise…I realize that doesn’t end, otherwise you will end up having to start all over. But that last post feels surreal to me that there really can be a end.

It’s reaching your goal.

(not so) Free Day…

By Lisa on 04.15.2008

Thank you for all the great comments left about my new ‘do. I’m still not sure about it…the girls at the salon make it look so easy…I make it look like it’s the first time I’ve ever used a curling iron. Oh, and here’s a tip on negative self-talking: Don’t ever come home after getting that new ‘do, look in the mirror and say out loud to yourself, ‘Kinda cute, but still the same old face!’…it does nothing to improve self-esteem.

So you know those great ‘free days’ you hear some dieters rave about? ‘It shakes up the calories you eat, and keeps your body guessing’…’you won’t feel deprived’…sounds great, right? It seems that once I allow this body to have a free day, the mind disconnects from the little bit of sense that is left in there, and runs with it. One free day (which was supposed to be Friday) that consisted of still-concious eating but a higher carb day, turned into 3 days of carb-hell.

The minute I had one serving of a !processed food / carb! my mood dropped, my energy level bottomed out and I felt like a big ol slob again. Holy crap, it’s not that I’m a big ol slob, it’s the CRAP-TASTIC food that is truly doing me in! And I felt it this time!

*LIGHTBULB*
*smacks self in head. yet again*
Starts fresh. Doing fine.

The after…

By Lisa on 04.12.2008

So I did it. The hair is gone. Here are comparison shots, with befores on top, obviously. I have to play with it more and make it more ‘me’ possibly, but I really like the fact that I can play and do it fun and curly or easily straighten it. Either way, I love it being thinner. My hair is so terribly thick and heavy. So this feels great. I realize I’m not photogenic, so bear with the pictures…it took no less than 50 pictures to get these ones to be decent.

Hair-do

By Lisa on 04.12.2008

I’m going to my annual haircut today. Yeah, it’s been a year without so much as a trim. It’s in bad shape and SO long. I leave in a couple of hours. This is what I’m thinking. Any opinions would be fun to hear!

I may need some answers, if you can help…

By Lisa on 04.09.2008

Does your body go through a detox when you start eating properly? I had another perfect day of eating, and last night and off and on today, headaches. I know I’m not dehydrated, because I’m drinking well over 80 oz. of water a day. I’m just wondering if my body is dealing with all the changes I’ve made in the last few days, and the weight is coming off, will this cause the headaches?

I’m even beginning to wonder…

By Lisa on 04.09.2008

…if I’m normal, that is.

You guys, I dreamed about Oreo Cakesters.

We have them in the pantry for the girls lunches. Funny thing is, they aren’t even a temptation for me. But I dreamed that I found 3 of them out of the wrappers and just sitting in odd hiding places in the cupboards. So when no one was looking, I grabbed each one and ate it before anyone could see.

I woke up this morning and the first thing I thought of was, man, those sound SO good. I had to talk myself out of eating one for breakfast. I had to skip breakfast at home completely…I was that scared of blowing it. I brought my strawberries, banana, apple and walnuts with me to have the amazing fruit mix for breakfast. Then it’s McDonald’s for lunch for an Asian Grilled Chicken salad again.

I’m going to avoid jinxing myself yet again, and not spill any kind of numbers all over the page here, but the scale is being freakishly nice to me. I’m talking ‘Biggest Loser’ nice to me. I think that’s motivation enough to pass on a crap-tastic breakfast.

And thunderstorms are due to pass through here today, so I may have to get me some Lippy tonight for a good run. She’s always good at beating me down pretty nicely.

Three for me…

By Lisa on 04.08.2008

Today is day 3. Well, 2. Ok, 3. My third day walking…another 2.5 miles! My second day of perfect, concious eating. Veggies, fruit, nothing processed and very low carbs. Probably shouldn’t be whooping it up over 2 days of perfect eating, but it feels great to be in control. I don’t feel ‘heavy’ after eating, I don’t feel tired. Honest to goodness, today was the first day in a few weeks that I really didn’t feel crappy and wanting to nap. I got me some energy!